David Billings Interviews
Lessons from our White Anti-Racist Elders
Read David’s Introductory Reflection here
Meet David: The Role of White People in Undoing Racism Movement
“I'm David Billings. I'm 64 years old now, but since my teens I've been very fascinated with the concept of race, and particularly my own race. You know, no one discussed it. No one talked about it.”
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It's unbelievable, now, in this country, thousands of people who became white in the United States are engaging the whole question of: what is the role of white people in the social justice movement? It's incredible. When the Institute was started in 1980–I would later learn of the work of Paul Marcus in Boston–but at that time I didn't know any white people that were struggling with the question of what it meant to be white.
I, along with Diana Dunn, Margery Freeman, and others, started a group called European Dissent. Because we took up the challenge of learning to relate to each other as white people and not depending on our relationship with people of color in order to feel that we were whole. A lot of us were living vicariously through our relationships with people of color. Now that discussion is going on all over the United States. The key is to move that discussion to organizing because–particularly those of us in the white activist intelligentsia role–we will talk something to death. But it's very difficult for us to say, okay, now let's go out there and make the mistakes. Let's go out there, get our hands dirty. And a lot of that's going on. I'm very pleased with it.
So that's been my life… I grew up in Mississippi. I was very much in a white supremist environment. There was a lot of violence. My hometown was called the most violent city on earth in 1962. But even there now, there are people grappling with the question of how do we move towards equity in this society? That's been incredible.
There have always been white people who spoke out against enslavement, or the massacre of the indigenous. There were always white people there. There are white people in every photograph of the Civil Rights era, but they're never named.
And you wonder: Who is that nun? Who is that? Who's that person in the back? If you look at that wonderful, iconic picture of Rosa Parks sitting in the Montgomery Bus and refusing to give up her seat, there's a white man sitting right behind her, but he's invisible. You're never told who he was. Well, he actually was a photographer for Look Magazine who had an incredible career, as did others, photographing.
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Radical whites were–in my experience–often not very pleasant to be around. We didn't know how to have fun, even with each other. In the circles that I moved in, we thought that having fun was somehow the equivalent of slacking off on the work that needed to be done. So it's very hard to organize any other white people because they said, you know, I don't want to go there and hear y'all beat up on me for not doing this or not doing that. So you have to learn how to have discussions that you can organize with.
The great failing of a lot of our work as, whatever you call us–liberated whites or anti-racist whites–is that we can't organize outside our own circle. So we meet each other in different venues but it's the same ones of us. So we have to be able to respect other white people, to organize with them, to not judge them, to be familiar with their music, to be familiar and be approving, in many ways, of how they live their lives. And not just scold all the time because it doesn't help build anything. And I see that a lot more now than I did at first: white people genuinely learning how to be together, to be in the movement and appreciate our own history.
There have been a lot of white anti-racists in history (they didn’t necessarily call themselves that), but they're not in the history books. So we grow up as white people only hearing about white people who did terrible things to others. But there have always been white people who spoke out against enslavement, or the massacre of the indigenous. There were always white people there. There are white people in every photograph of the Civil Rights era, but they're never named. And you wonder: Who is that nun? Who is that? Who's that person in the back? If you look at that wonderful, iconic picture of Rosa Parks sitting in the Montgomery Bus and refusing to give up her seat, there's a white man sitting right behind her, but he's invisible. You're never told who he was. Well, he actually was a photographer for Look Magazine who had an incredible career, as did others, photographing. So we need that history, and we need to keep our spirits up, and to not fail ourselves. A lot of us–we just beat ourselves up all the time for what we haven't done. And while there's a point at which I guess that's necessary, it can't be that which describes our relationships. Most people are just not going to respond to that.
Illustrated recreation of famous photo of Rosa Parks seated on a bus with Nicholas C. Chriss behind her
It takes a long time to internalize the Undoing Racism Workshop. Even as I was one of the trainers in the workshop, I was constantly, in ways conscious and unconscious, internalizing the message. The founders would always say this is about organizing. We would all nod our heads, and when they asked how many of you are organizers in the room?
Transcript: It takes a long time to internalize the Undoing Racism Workshop. Even as I was one of the trainers in the workshop, I was constantly, in ways conscious and unconscious, internalizing the message. The founders would always say this is about organizing. We would all nod our heads, and when they asked how many of you are organizers in the room?, some of us would raise our hand. We weren't doing any organizing! But we wanted to be one, and you just internalize the message so much over time–not one sitting or two, but many sittings–hearing the way in which people would talk about not just their history but their lives. And saying: talk about your history, talk about your life. What did you do? When did you do it? Who were your mentors? How did you learn what you were doing? That was a struggle, but organizing means that we've gone through an internal process of development. It means that each setting we’re in, the idea of bringing people together is primary. Not just educating people, not just advocating for people, but how do you organize?
In New York, everybody was an expert it seemed when we first met. We were working in academia, people had written books, people were world-renowned in their field, there was great expertise in the room, but it wasn't organized, you know, this was just a debate. Or you would hold yourself over in one department or another. So bringing that expertise together and hammering on it, saying, we’ve got to move the expertise to action. We've got to organize within the systems we're a part of. And a lot of that is going. In New York City, social work will never be the same again [because of the frequency of Undoing Racism Workshops in that field]. I think I can say that with some assurance, and it feels good to have been a part of that.
People are talking about racism who've never talked about it, who assume they knew about it. In academia we found this curious thing–we thought we'd be embraced by academia as being colleagues with them, but academia is set up to compete. And so people who would naturally be our allies were in fact reluctant to work with us because it might diminish their role in the academy. We can't condemn that. We have to understand why that is and why–if people think they know–why is there so little organizing? Tenure’s almost impossible for a person of color to get in this country, but we don't say, well why is that? Why is it so difficult for people of color particularly to gain tenure? What is tenure anyway? What is its intent? When did it start? These were all questions that intrigued us. We said, you've got to grapple with this. This is just as racially invested as some of the things that occurred in the 50s and 60s.
So that discussion of Undoing Racism is happening all over New York City. People stop me on the street–not just me but others they've met–and say, I went to your workshop! Or I'll meet someone in a coffee shop–this happened just recently–a young woman said, can I sit here?, and she said, you’re that Undoing Racism guy, aren't you? I said who are you??, and she said, I go to the nursing school across the street and we're grappling with what The People's Institute teaches. It's very gratifying. You feel that you've contributed something that is greater than yourself.